The Truth That Haunts

I journeyed a route I chose selfishly sure

Abandoning futures through the actions I took

Left behind those I once loved but returning once more

The road that I chose turned full circle through fate

And I return to the start of my life’s great detour

Starting over down another freshly mown path

Insecurities come back to haunt my every dream

Failings of the past once more sharpen into focus

The fear of betrayal rises ever closer to the surface

Nervously await the arrival of abandoned wrath

Turning my back on the carnage I created

You, the only soul that ever knew the sordid truth

The reality of my leaving and the chaos I left behind

Knowing I left to protect the lives of the innocent

Acts I committed left you torn and alienated

Returning to the scene of my shallow selfish crime

I find myself wandering through painful memories

Fate dealt out it’s criminally twisted hand

A moment I had never perceived way back then

Being here again, is like going back in time

A dark secret to your chest you hold so close

Awaiting the day you can lay the victims table

Setting out the cellars of insecurity and failing

Of a simple and once deceitful twisted wretch

Await the moment for the truth to be exposed

Avoiding you becomes tougher with every passing day

Ever decreasing circles we swim in intertwine

The crossroads of two paths must come together soon

Colliding in the carnage of those forgotten memories

And I stare in trepidation at the moment in disarray

© Fergus Martin

2012